Blink and you miss it so they say, well here’s to week 21 and it certainly feels like I almost missed it! I can’t believe there’s only 19 weeks to go. I realised I am actually heading into my 6 month of pregnancy….what?!? I’m beginning to panic, I basically have everything somewhere from Finlay, but I am not feeling prepared! I still don’t feel like I have my head around this pregnancy. Perhaps that is completely normal for the second one? I shall just keep telling myself that, that will make me feel better, maybe I will write a to do list…..maybe…if I get round to it!
This week I say a fond au revoir to my belly button. It was nice knowing you. I admire how you faithfully returned last time a little worse for wear. If you return again, you may have to give me the heads up as I don’t think I will recognise you. You will be missed and I will reminisce those days when we would go out partying, showing off to the world. Thank you for being such a stunning belly button. p.s sorry, I keep hitting you on things, I am not used to you being the furthest point of my tummy!
This week I think my hormones are reeking havoc with me. I feel my moods are swinging constantly. Especially relating to my positivity. I had a little blip last week and really started to panic about having a successful VBAC. I think a combination of hormones and finding out the baby was sitting breech at the 20 week scan put me into panic mode. However, some lovely reassuring comments on a few of my post have put my mind at ease. I’m going to take a list of things I want to discuss about it at my 24 week midwife appointment. Hopefully, I can get some answers to everything that’s a bit unknown still.
I think the hormones are also messing a little with my Blood Pressure. I had a few funny feelings this week. Nothing bad, but just weird. I remember getting light headed on occasions with Finlay the first time around and it was just down to random drops in BP. I have also been experiencing some funny feelings in my tummy, tightening combined with what I can only describe as going over a hump back bridge in a car, just less intense. I’m guessing this is probably the baby pushing on something of flipping about. If it carries on then I might mention it to be on safe side.
The baby has been moving about quite a bit this week. Although I wouldn’t say I feel regular movements yet due to the anterior placenta, It definitely has a good jiggle a few times a day. In fact, the other day in bed when it was happening I lifted my top. I was just in time to see the teeniest movement on my tummy!
This week I have really begun to notice Chloasma, on my face. This developed with Finlay also, luckily only really by my left eye. It does look just like my freckles, but they tend to fade in the winter where as this gets more pronounced. I have begun to use my bio oil on it, hopefully, it won’t get too bad. The good news is if it does it will disappear at some point after the birth anyway.
I have been looking into Doulas quite a bit recently. Most probably due to all my overthinking, I was looking for ways to find reassurance. I would really love to hire a doula for the birth. Just to have somewhere there to support me and help make my wishes heard. I just think it’s going to be impossible financially, though. We only just make ends meet each month, so unless I come into some pennies, I don’t think it will happen. It makes me quite sad as I have heard such wonderful things about doulas, from friends and reading blogs. I really think it would be so good for me, I’m still holding out some hope!
So Finally, back to the raging hormones – I have been having weird dreams about Vampire Weekend (The Band)!